Thursday, May 26, 2011

Reflection Questions

1. Considering the development opportunities available to you this year, how have you applied what you learned?
- I applied to a job recently. I learned how to do a Resume and what to say at an interview.
2. What strengths do you possess that you can use at a higher level next year?
- My Intelligence!(:
3. What obstacles must you work through so you can meet all your goals for this year?
-The obstacle I need to work through to meet all my goals for this year is my attitude. Over my previous years of high school I in a way have improved. But from time to time I cant help it and it comes right back out. I know im smart and if I put my mind to things I can achieve, the only thing that messes me up is my attitude.

4.Discuss what you have learned during the class and how it will assist you in achieving further academic and work related goals.
-During the class I've learned how to use Microsoft Office Access, got more expirience in Microsoft Powerpoint and I learned how to create webpages. This new things I learned this year are going to be useful for my future academic and work related goals. They can be useful for college and my future FBI Agent job.(:
5. If you could do any assignment over this year, which one would it be and why? Any regrets?
-If I could do any assignments over again it would be "All About Me" powerpoint. Why? Because I got a 0 and it lowered my grade. I regret it, it wasnt a hard assignment and just because the first one I did didnt work I was lazy to it all over again.
6. What are 3 words you would use to describe this class?
-FUN, FUN, FUN! I enjoyed this class! :D
7. How did your computer skills grow or improve over the course of the year?
- I know more stuff about computers and their programs. I improved my skills with excel, powerpoint and etc.

Friday, April 15, 2011

Doc 1

Theres Times Where..

Theres times where I can't even look at my sister straight in the eyes. It brakes my heart every time I see her smile or hear her laugh. Theres times where I dont even want to be near her. I feel like if the world comes down on me. Theres times where I can't let her even touch me. Every touch of hers hurts me. Because I know that one day, I wont be able to feel her little hands touch me. Theres times where I dont let her kiss me or hug me, because I brake down into tears. It hurts. Just by looking at her and seeing her, I cant stand it sometimes its just too much for me to deal with. I have to go through every single day pretending everything is right, when nothing is. MY world only revolves around her, everything is about her. Its hard to deal with this situation. But I always manage to keep going on every single day with a smile on my face. However, I seem to find some happiness when I see her having fun and carrying that smile of hers everywhere, I love seeing her happy. Thats all I want.


Just decided to post this, so people can see that its not easy. People say they understand what your going through, but they got it all twisted up. They dont know how it feels. Their not the ones hurting...



This is what makes me strong! <3

Monday, April 11, 2011

What I've Learned..

Well I learned alot about my topic. Ever since we found out what my sister has, I started researching. And it has helped me understand things better. I used to think that she came out with that because of my parents. Which means that in a way I blamed them. Later, as time passed I read in the internet that it wasn't caused by parents.

I learned how T-18 is diagnosed, the characteristics, what it is, and the different types of Trisomy 18 there are. In most cases they are diagnosed prenatally. Throughout prenatal test, screenings, diagnostic test. Like most screening test indicate an increased risk for Trisomy 18, while diagnostic test indicate an actual diagnosis of Trisomy 18. They have their differences.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Why Trisomy 18 as topic?

I choosed Trisomy 18 as my topic for my project because I have a sister with this disability. Also, because at first when people use to see her with her G-Tube they would stare at her like if she was contagious. I used to hate that! I would always get into constant arguements with people. But my mom once told me that they were ignorant people and to not listen to them, all we had to worry about was to make her happy while she was still with us. That had sense, I stopped caring what people would say about her onces they saw her. I still remember once hearing this at a party we took her, "why did she have her? she should of had aborted!" Another reason why I write this! There is NOTHING wrong with kids that have disabilities. On the other hand every human being with a kid like this is lucky!. They bring so much happiness to ones life. Even if theres alot you have to worry about, they are ANGELS that are brought to someones life to make it better. (:

So Im thankful for my sister! Even if it hurts me to know that one day she'll be gone, Ima always be thankful for such happiness that she brought into my life.

Friday, April 1, 2011

My Story

I, personally have a sister that has Mosaic Trisomy 18.  It was really hard to find out about this. All throughout my mom’s pregnancy I would always imagine me and baby sister playing dress up, me doing her make-up and all that stuff that sisters do together. It was wonderful while that imagination lasted. We found out that my baby sister was going to come to this world sick, thanks to an ultrasound. But we never knew that she was going to have T-18. I’ll never be able to forget June 22, 2007, that day was the beginning of a wonderful but sad life story.
Finally the day to meet her came. It was around 8 when she was born. When my dad brought her outside for us to see her, I was surprised. She was so little; I could literally fit her in one arm. Hours passed and we started to wonder how was it that they still didn’t let my mom see her daughter. Finally, they brought her into my mom’s room. Thats when they told us they had to transfer her to Texas Childrens Hospital.
My sister spent from day one of her arrival there to about when she was 2 months old in the hospital. My mom not yet fully recovered of her c-section was there day and night. All she went home for was to take showers and eat. I really admired my mother at that time. Finally, she was diagnosed with Trisomy 18. The doctors that were working on her explain what that was. When we heard that does babies don’t live much, I and my mom broke down in tears. Me, like my mom almost never left the hospital. So it was really crushing to hear that news. My mom went into some kind of depression; she would never leave the hospital! She won’t even eat; all she did was stare at our angel and cry.
That of course made me sad, but after that day they told us what she had, I never cried in front of my mom again. For the reason that all her friends would call me and tell me that I was her only support that I needed to be strong for her. That let alone was a lot for me to do, I was only 11 years old and i couldn't cry out what i felt inside nor even talk to my mom about it. So that was alot on my shoulder.


As the year went on it got harder for us.

Thank God and Julia got to live past her 1st year. Which am not going to lie, was the hardest. Any little thing that happened to her was very risky. So you can imagine how much care we had with her. Her first year was really hard for me because I couldn’t get used to the idea that one day she'll be gone... :(


Its scary. I always think about that one day that I'll never see her smile again or hear her cry. I burst out into tears. Every night that passes by I cry myself to sleep. I can’t help but thing the worst. I always ask myself “How is everything going to be once she’s gone?” ” What is it going to be of my family?”... Those questions are always hunting my mind. I've always been scared because it could be today, tomorrow, or whenever and im not ready to let her go yet. I still have many things to teach her and expirience with her. I feel that when that day comes I'll never be able to be myself again. My life with her is full of happiness and without her its going to be empty. She has becomed my everything, theres not a thing i wouldn't do for her. And it brakes my heart that it had to be her. But i dont even question it, it is what it is.
My baby girl has been through a lot already. I’m proud of her because she is still holding strong. However, its really hard to deal with her because she still doesn’t understand much. The doctors said her mentality is 1 year in a half behind, which means that right now she still thinks like a 2 year old. It’s harder to get her to listen to you. So you have to have plenty of patience.
She is now about to turn 4 years. I couldn’t be any happier of her and how far she has come.


And I would give up my life for hers in a heartbeat <3